It's time!! Maybe

Warning. If you don't want to her about my pregnancy/labor update, feel free to exit my blog now. thanks :)

Here is the latest: I went to my regular Dr. Appointment yesterday which starts my weekly visits. He checked my and I am already dilated to a 3 and 75% effaced. I went in with complaints of feeling lousy. My back was aching, I had pelvic pressure and I had a bad stomach issue that was making me feel queasy and all that cuteness. :/ He said part of it is beginning of labor but he thinks I also have a stomach virus. yippee! not. He said I HAD to stay hydrated or I needed to go to the hospital for iv fluids. UGH I have already been there-done that this pregnancy. BUT any drinks did make me feel worse and nauseous. I had my mother in law buy me some gatorade today.

Anyway so he told me since I was 3 days away from 36 weeks (I wished they wouldn't have switched my due date back to May 28th especially since I have measured ahead in ultrasounds and each time they measure me at the appointments) anyway since I still had 3 days, if he kept me for delivery the hospital would try to stop labor which I completely understand. But if I could make it to Saturday then they won't try to stop it. So he put me basically on bed rest for 3 days. uh..... yeah I started to cry. I didn't tell him why but it was because I have all these kids I still babysit, it's because I have a 1 and 3 year old with no husband to help. How in the heck am I supposed to be on bed rest?? for 3 days though? that COULD be ok.

Last night I had bad, bad contractions that kept waking me up. When I tried to time them they were not consistent and yes I know the difference between braxton hicks and true contractions. These were PAINFUL!! but they never got closer so I went to bed. Woke up today feeling even worse. Felt like I did 2,000 crunches and that my back had someone tap dance on it for a bit in the night. So I am still on "bed rest" keeping this baby in me until Saturday. sigh. My dear friend Heather brought us dinner tonight as well as lunches, drinks and snacks for my kids for the next few days. :) so sweet!! Also my mother in law took the girls for a few hours today for play and lunch so I could rest and shower. I actually have had several people offer to help and it is so nice to feel all the love and support. I feel terrible to the parents of the kids I babysit but this couldn't have been helped so it obviously wasn't my fault but I do still feel bad

I have been praying all month that when I go in labor Daniel would get here in time. After thinking I was in labor last night I prayed again, this time that I would KNOW when to call Daniel. I couldn't imagine calling him, he races here driving almost 5 hours just to have me be like oops... false labor you know?? So my MIL suggests he just come home today. yes! brilliant!! He happens to NOT work the rest of the week or this weekend. Then he wouldn't have to race. He can take his time, spend the weekend with us, help pack, give the girls much needed attention and IF baby comes he will be here!!! Even though I just saw him for Easter (it was only 24 hours. NOT nearly enough especially when I hadn't seen him in 2 weeks before that) I am so grateful he gets to come. IF baby comes this weekend, his work is giving him a week off, so he can stay longer! If she doesn't, he at least got the weekend with us!! hooray!!

So.... any tips how to get baby to come early?? :) I want her to cook as long as possible and be healthy but I also don't want my husband to miss her birth and be dilated and contracting forever you know??

Has anyone ever been dilated for a long time before or does this mean I could have a baby soon?? holy moly I wished I just KNEW!!

ha ha

well..... I am going to go lay down and obey doctors orders.

ps thanks for all the fenugreek responses! I got really good feedback and have it packed in my hospital bag. I appreciate people responding even if I don't know you. I always like to hear from new people too. :)

have a good day everyone and maybe next time I post it will be about the birth of my sweet baby!! I can hope, right??

you live in Utah if...

THIS IS WHAT JEFF FOXWORTHY HAD TO SAY ABOUT UTAHNS!
>

These are so funny! And SO true!
>
> If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance and they don't work

> there, you live in Utah.
>
> If you've worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you live in Utah
>
> If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed the
wrong
> number, you live in Utah.
>
> If 'vacation' means going anywhere south of Salt Lake City for the
weekend, you
> live in Utah.
>
> If you measure distance in hours, you live in Utah.
>
> If you know several people who have hit a deer more than once, you live in
Utah.
>
> If you have switched from 'heat' to 'A/C' and back again in the same day,
you
> live in Utah.
>
> If you install security lights on your house and garage but leave both
unlocked,
> you live in Utah.
>
> If you can drive 75 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard
without
> flinching, you live in Utah.
>
> If you design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit, you
live in
> Utah.
>
> If the speed limit on the highway is 75 mph -- you're going 80, and
everyone is
> still passing you, you live in Utah.
>
> If driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with
snow,
> you live in Utah.
>
> If you know all 4 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road
> construction, you live in Utah.
>
> If you find 10 degrees 'a little chilly' you live in Utah.
>
> If you actually understand these jokes and forward them to all your
friends, you
> live in Utah.

Once upon a time...

.... it dawned on me that most my posts lately are discouraging, depressing and seemingly quite moody.. well my moods are very UP and very DOWN. Oh well that's life yeah? Especially when you have hormones you can't control.

I don't mean to be a debbie downer. I just choose to blog at times I need to vent or get out something so I don't blow up. Ever feel good after a good emotional get it all out vent session??

:)

anyhoo...

life really is good and I have a lot to be grateful for. For instance: I get to see my husband soon! I get to see my new home, new town and show the kids again what is coming in the very, very near future! Also it will only be 2 weeks since I have seen Daniel instead of the 3 like last time. Sweet!!

I know my complaints lately may have seemed lame, or petty or small to some. In my eyes they were/are a big deal. I don't think my life is harder or worse than anyone else. We ALL have our own problems, stresses, and issues.

I am just glad that I have family and friends to help me with the things that seem unbearable at times. I have great support around me. I have help with my kids this week each evening so I can pack. Wonderful right? My kids get play dates and I get something done!! I FINALLY see a dent in the packing!

This pregnancy while it has certainly given me pains and grief has by far been easiest out of the 3. I think all the prayers on my behalf are helping immensely. I am not as blue, stressed, sick, miserable or bed ridden as I was with the others. Yet I am much busier, on my feet all day and carrying a lot of responsibilities. Could be worse and I am so glad I have few issues these days with my body and pregnancy pain.

Also, I see the OB every week now! it's getting close! hooray.

That's all for now. I have to get back to packing. Well it is 1230 am so maybe sleep would be better. yeah? ha ha. I forget sometimes.

My laptop will not charge and that's where all my pictures are. Its a bummer. I feel my blog is so naked without all my usual pictures. oh, I do have a few on my memory card. And by "a few" I mean a little over 10. Hooray for pictures!!

no particular or correct order:

ps she came straight from dance competition, hence the makeup and super non- Easter party attire

She sure loves her daddy!

goodness I can't get her to hold still for pictures!! ha ha I wonder why. Maybe because she is 1. :)

moving= new play places

The girls wanted chocolate milk. I had none but was making me an instant breakfast. I told the girls they could have some and after Ireland scooped her own, I agreed to let Leighton do hers. See how that turned out:

:)

St. George!! (did I already post these 2 pics already??)

Leighton LOVES art, drawing, painting. She just gets in weird positions to do her master pieces:

oh, hi Ireland

We got the girls new dresses and necklaces in Hawaii and wanted them to pose after church in Auntie's room. Cute huh?


the end :) :)

oh right... bed!

So, I am a year older..

Happy Birthday to me

I feel so crummy

I want to meet my baby

but not this many weeks early

why oh why did I have to wake up feeling like crud?? :(

Why is my hot husband not here to celebrate the day with me? (also a massage)

:)

My sister decorated my living room with pink balloons and streamers. Its cute. It made me smile. I needed a smile today.

I am taking the kids to St. George to see Daddy for Easter. That also makes me smile :)

34 weeks.

34 weeks and I can get induced in 5. wow that is coming fast!!

This has been my healthiest pregnancy. The first I actually took prenatals (well I took MAYBE 10 TOTAL with each of my other girls) this is the first I ate somewhat healthy. Not intentionally. I just didn't crave as much fat and grease as I did with the others. The only pregnancy I worked out. At all. I NEVER tried to lose weight though or tried to do anything like that. It was more to get and keep energy. Keep my legs somewhat toned. Have my heart not pound out of my chest by walking a little fast, you know. I would do toning exercises, occasional toned down Zumba, light treadmill walking. Stuff like that.

anyway healthiest pregnancy, yet this is by far my biggest baby at this point. I looked back at past pictures and I am much bigger in the belly then I was with the girls this far along. Baby is nice and plump and healthy is how I take it! I am so happy! Despite my worries about her being too small or even me, I can see now she is going to be big!! At least I sure hope so

I am grateful that as sick as I get I still can have healthy babies. That's all I could hope for.

♫♪ I wanna Rock! ♫♪ part 2

I know I just did a post about Ireland's dance performance but since I can, I will now post about her dance competition she just had. Yep, same outfit, same dance. Whatever. I think she is adorable and want to document each one :)

walking in. So excited she couldn't stand it

lining up...

ha ha ha those wigs crack me up!!

After her dance. She got to go get her trophy

She thought it was pretty much the best thing ever!

She talked about it the whole way home. She took it to the Easter party we went to right after her competition, she also HAD to take it to church. ha ha ok. :)
I will post the video after I get it onto youtube first. For some reason blogger hates my videos other wise. ??

Fenugreek help

I need some help! It doesn't matter to me if I know you or not, if you are a friend or a blog stalker, PLEASE help me if you have any advice, opinions or facts about the product Fenugreek.

I bought some recently and I am desperate!!

Have you tried it before or know someone who has? Did it work?

I will do everything in my power to try to make breast milk for this new baby!

After 2 failed breastfeeding attempts with my 2 daughters and learning I only make the watery part of the milk (maybe 2 oz total a day!)

I have tried every tip, idea, or secret. I have met with lactation specialists, pediatricians, obstetricians, and read every thing online I could find. I am determined but was wondering if this is the way to go.

It is supposed to be healthy and natural.

if you can, comment here. I don't care if you go anonymous. or you can email me mandikins19@gmail.com

thanks!

I wanna Rock!

I just did a post below this one. It was a boring one so I decided to make a fun post!

Ireland's first dance performance! It was at a retirement home. They loved it! It was a big hit.

Here are some pictures of her getting ready. Her hair is slicked back because she had a wig. I was also told very specifically what makeup to do (even a certain color and brand of lipstick!)

She has these AMAZING, beyond long lashes and trying to put mascara on them was tricky. Besides the fact that she has tiny eyes... since she is 3.

ps pleeeeeease don't mind the lipstick. Good grief, she has the tiniest lips, I don't even wear lipstick, let alone put it on my baby so.... don't laugh k?

Let's do this!

Here is the video of her performance. You will know which kid is mine because one- she is SO tiny. Also- I focused on pretty much just her. :)

Oh and you can't miss her because she didn't stand up in the beginning! :) :) gotta love it!! Her teacher stayed down to obviously not stand in front of the audience to help with the dance. Well my adorable princess didn't catch on at first. I think it was priceless. Man I love this kid!! Ireland missed some days of class between Hawaii and other things so they moved her to the back. :( She is so small I couldn't see her in the end. BUT if she can prove by tomorrow's class that she knows it she can be back in the front. HOORAY!! ( As you will see- she knows the dance, she got nervous and watched the teacher a lot though. Also the whole not standing up at first thing)....I KNOW she knows it but let's see if she shows it in class tomorrow!

here ya go, enjoy!!

to pass the time

**um before I begin...WHY IN THE HECK is my post cut off and carried down

to the next line?? anyone know? super annoying. eh. carry on... **

to pass the time I think I will sit here and relieve some built up stress, worries, concerns and fears. That is what I do. I talk/write to my hearts content and rarely proofread, grammar or spell check nor do I ever THINK first.

I just let it happen. So bear with me. again :)

Right this minute I should be cleaning. I should be packing. I should take a shower. I should rest my aching back. I should make my children

turn off their movies and go to bed. I should think of something thoughtful to tell my husband tomorrow- because it will be his birthday. the big 27. ha ha. old man. :) I like older men. He is 8 days older than me.

He is still gone. tomorrow will be 16 days. Part of me is so sad, and frustrated and overwhelmed with being mom AND dad the last 2+ weeks

but part of me is glad he is gone. It makes me appreciate him more, take advantage less. I am a spoiled girl. He spoils me rotten and does so many things for me and for the kids. He rarely complains and works his butt off.

I am grateful and I do express my appreciation but him being gone and me doing everything definitely opens my eyes. It for sure helps me see how good I really do have it. To see

what an incredible daddy my kids have. I am serious he is so amazing with them.

ahem. Excuse me I sorta went off there. Not even what I was going to get in to.

I just realized in 6 weeks or less I will have a new baby. I will schedule my induction date tomorrow. She won't make it to that date I am certain.

I still have morning sickness. yep yep yep. No pill, food, drink or trick has helped. sigh. hopefully this means she will be super healthy!

We paid our security deposit on the new apartment today. yay it's happening!! That is a tiny bit of my concern though is moving to an apartment. I have never lived in one. When Daniel and I got married we had a home waiting for us. When I was 7 months pregnant with Ireland we moved here.

I am excited but nervous. This could be interesting! We only did a 6 month lease....just to be safe. We are waiting for some towne homes we have our eyes on to have a spot for us. Except the waiting list is well over a year out.

Maybe we will find something else. We WILL be 7ish blocks from the temple, within walking distance of parks, the library, stores, yummy cafes and places to eat. The police station is close. Cops drive around as well as bicycle cops through the parks. It seems so happy and safe and watched over. I love it.

let the adventures begin! I also found out my aunt, uncle, their kids and my grandparents are moving there too! Also just came in contact with long lost friends who live there that I have known since I was little.

So I already know people there, that will help.

I already forgot about what else I needed to get out. hmmm. guess it wasn't too important :)

Daniel comes home Friday for 4 days! Ireland has a dance competition this weekend! He will be here for that. Then to celebrate both our birthdays,

enjoy his monthly dinner we have with his family, then Monday my Dad is getting sealed in the temple to his amazing wife who I just adore- Rosalinda.

Then Daniel returns back to our future home and gets things ready for us. I pray and hope and pray and hope that when I do go into labor he can get back here in time.

anyhoo blah blah blah. I don't think I even said anything new that I haven't said in previous posts. :) That's me for ya! :)

Salt Lake... you crack me up

Not really.

The last 3 days have been BEAUTIFUL, sunny, warm. SPRING!! The kids played with no jackets, barefoot, rode bikes, art with chalk, running through the grass

Then TODAY we woke up to this:
beautiful, yes. Cold- also yes. brrrrr! Pretty; but I want spring back again. please??

Smile and pretend you're ok

I don't know how Army wives do it. Or wives of husbands who leave for long periods of time for work or school or things like that. I am being such a baby but really am having a tough time. I KNOW it could be worse and that my situation probably is lame but it still sucks for me. In almost 5 years of marriage I have been away from Daniel at the most a weekend. Even then I had a 2 week old baby, a one year old and strep so I had help and I slept the whole time.

This is a little different. Daniel left early to St. George. He has a great job working from home but when we move I will no longer be watching all these kids. So he went to find a part time job to fill in the financial gap. He has been gone 11 days. His Birthday is Wed and we won't get to see him. He will be home on the 8th for 4 days and he leaves again. So then he will miss my Birthday, ANOTHER one of Ireland's dance recitals. Through all this I am pregnant, miserable, watching kids 11 hours a day then having my own beautiful babies to love, raise and cuddle with. I am cleaning and packing to move, plus dance class for Ireland, grocery trips, dr. appointments. Alone. It just sucks. after the 4 days he is here, he leaves again until I go into labor at the end of May. I will call him and he will try his best to race the 4.5 hour drive to get here in time. He will love on baby, then move our stuff to St. George, come back, grab us. THEN we can be together as a family from then on out!

Maybe it's just pregnancy hormones and I will look back and laugh. Really I will laugh for sure. ha ha. Maybe not.

Single moms are my heroes

This was a good vent.

Have a lovely day

ps. Thank you to my mother in law and my sister who DO help whenever they can! Your kindness does not go unnoticed.

Also, thank you to my amazing husband who works his butt off to make this work for us. To make sure we have the money to survive when we move. Who has to be doing all this without seeing his daughters each day.

Also- thank you to my brother for giving Daniel a place to stay.

Thanks to my mother for letting me text her multiple times a day with my complaints. :) and always giving me good advice.

See I don't have it so bad. I have a lot of good people on my side who help and get me through tough times. Hooray!