34 weeks.

34 weeks and I can get induced in 5. wow that is coming fast!!

This has been my healthiest pregnancy. The first I actually took prenatals (well I took MAYBE 10 TOTAL with each of my other girls) this is the first I ate somewhat healthy. Not intentionally. I just didn't crave as much fat and grease as I did with the others. The only pregnancy I worked out. At all. I NEVER tried to lose weight though or tried to do anything like that. It was more to get and keep energy. Keep my legs somewhat toned. Have my heart not pound out of my chest by walking a little fast, you know. I would do toning exercises, occasional toned down Zumba, light treadmill walking. Stuff like that.

anyway healthiest pregnancy, yet this is by far my biggest baby at this point. I looked back at past pictures and I am much bigger in the belly then I was with the girls this far along. Baby is nice and plump and healthy is how I take it! I am so happy! Despite my worries about her being too small or even me, I can see now she is going to be big!! At least I sure hope so

I am grateful that as sick as I get I still can have healthy babies. That's all I could hope for.

♫♪ I wanna Rock! ♫♪ part 2

I know I just did a post about Ireland's dance performance but since I can, I will now post about her dance competition she just had. Yep, same outfit, same dance. Whatever. I think she is adorable and want to document each one :)

walking in. So excited she couldn't stand it

lining up...

ha ha ha those wigs crack me up!!

After her dance. She got to go get her trophy

She thought it was pretty much the best thing ever!

She talked about it the whole way home. She took it to the Easter party we went to right after her competition, she also HAD to take it to church. ha ha ok. :)
I will post the video after I get it onto youtube first. For some reason blogger hates my videos other wise. ??

Fenugreek help

I need some help! It doesn't matter to me if I know you or not, if you are a friend or a blog stalker, PLEASE help me if you have any advice, opinions or facts about the product Fenugreek.

I bought some recently and I am desperate!!

Have you tried it before or know someone who has? Did it work?

I will do everything in my power to try to make breast milk for this new baby!

After 2 failed breastfeeding attempts with my 2 daughters and learning I only make the watery part of the milk (maybe 2 oz total a day!)

I have tried every tip, idea, or secret. I have met with lactation specialists, pediatricians, obstetricians, and read every thing online I could find. I am determined but was wondering if this is the way to go.

It is supposed to be healthy and natural.

if you can, comment here. I don't care if you go anonymous. or you can email me mandikins19@gmail.com

thanks!

I wanna Rock!

I just did a post below this one. It was a boring one so I decided to make a fun post!

Ireland's first dance performance! It was at a retirement home. They loved it! It was a big hit.

Here are some pictures of her getting ready. Her hair is slicked back because she had a wig. I was also told very specifically what makeup to do (even a certain color and brand of lipstick!)

She has these AMAZING, beyond long lashes and trying to put mascara on them was tricky. Besides the fact that she has tiny eyes... since she is 3.

ps pleeeeeease don't mind the lipstick. Good grief, she has the tiniest lips, I don't even wear lipstick, let alone put it on my baby so.... don't laugh k?

Let's do this!

Here is the video of her performance. You will know which kid is mine because one- she is SO tiny. Also- I focused on pretty much just her. :)

Oh and you can't miss her because she didn't stand up in the beginning! :) :) gotta love it!! Her teacher stayed down to obviously not stand in front of the audience to help with the dance. Well my adorable princess didn't catch on at first. I think it was priceless. Man I love this kid!! Ireland missed some days of class between Hawaii and other things so they moved her to the back. :( She is so small I couldn't see her in the end. BUT if she can prove by tomorrow's class that she knows it she can be back in the front. HOORAY!! ( As you will see- she knows the dance, she got nervous and watched the teacher a lot though. Also the whole not standing up at first thing)....I KNOW she knows it but let's see if she shows it in class tomorrow!

here ya go, enjoy!!

to pass the time

**um before I begin...WHY IN THE HECK is my post cut off and carried down

to the next line?? anyone know? super annoying. eh. carry on... **

to pass the time I think I will sit here and relieve some built up stress, worries, concerns and fears. That is what I do. I talk/write to my hearts content and rarely proofread, grammar or spell check nor do I ever THINK first.

I just let it happen. So bear with me. again :)

Right this minute I should be cleaning. I should be packing. I should take a shower. I should rest my aching back. I should make my children

turn off their movies and go to bed. I should think of something thoughtful to tell my husband tomorrow- because it will be his birthday. the big 27. ha ha. old man. :) I like older men. He is 8 days older than me.

He is still gone. tomorrow will be 16 days. Part of me is so sad, and frustrated and overwhelmed with being mom AND dad the last 2+ weeks

but part of me is glad he is gone. It makes me appreciate him more, take advantage less. I am a spoiled girl. He spoils me rotten and does so many things for me and for the kids. He rarely complains and works his butt off.

I am grateful and I do express my appreciation but him being gone and me doing everything definitely opens my eyes. It for sure helps me see how good I really do have it. To see

what an incredible daddy my kids have. I am serious he is so amazing with them.

ahem. Excuse me I sorta went off there. Not even what I was going to get in to.

I just realized in 6 weeks or less I will have a new baby. I will schedule my induction date tomorrow. She won't make it to that date I am certain.

I still have morning sickness. yep yep yep. No pill, food, drink or trick has helped. sigh. hopefully this means she will be super healthy!

We paid our security deposit on the new apartment today. yay it's happening!! That is a tiny bit of my concern though is moving to an apartment. I have never lived in one. When Daniel and I got married we had a home waiting for us. When I was 7 months pregnant with Ireland we moved here.

I am excited but nervous. This could be interesting! We only did a 6 month lease....just to be safe. We are waiting for some towne homes we have our eyes on to have a spot for us. Except the waiting list is well over a year out.

Maybe we will find something else. We WILL be 7ish blocks from the temple, within walking distance of parks, the library, stores, yummy cafes and places to eat. The police station is close. Cops drive around as well as bicycle cops through the parks. It seems so happy and safe and watched over. I love it.

let the adventures begin! I also found out my aunt, uncle, their kids and my grandparents are moving there too! Also just came in contact with long lost friends who live there that I have known since I was little.

So I already know people there, that will help.

I already forgot about what else I needed to get out. hmmm. guess it wasn't too important :)

Daniel comes home Friday for 4 days! Ireland has a dance competition this weekend! He will be here for that. Then to celebrate both our birthdays,

enjoy his monthly dinner we have with his family, then Monday my Dad is getting sealed in the temple to his amazing wife who I just adore- Rosalinda.

Then Daniel returns back to our future home and gets things ready for us. I pray and hope and pray and hope that when I do go into labor he can get back here in time.

anyhoo blah blah blah. I don't think I even said anything new that I haven't said in previous posts. :) That's me for ya! :)

Salt Lake... you crack me up

Not really.

The last 3 days have been BEAUTIFUL, sunny, warm. SPRING!! The kids played with no jackets, barefoot, rode bikes, art with chalk, running through the grass

Then TODAY we woke up to this:
beautiful, yes. Cold- also yes. brrrrr! Pretty; but I want spring back again. please??

Smile and pretend you're ok

I don't know how Army wives do it. Or wives of husbands who leave for long periods of time for work or school or things like that. I am being such a baby but really am having a tough time. I KNOW it could be worse and that my situation probably is lame but it still sucks for me. In almost 5 years of marriage I have been away from Daniel at the most a weekend. Even then I had a 2 week old baby, a one year old and strep so I had help and I slept the whole time.

This is a little different. Daniel left early to St. George. He has a great job working from home but when we move I will no longer be watching all these kids. So he went to find a part time job to fill in the financial gap. He has been gone 11 days. His Birthday is Wed and we won't get to see him. He will be home on the 8th for 4 days and he leaves again. So then he will miss my Birthday, ANOTHER one of Ireland's dance recitals. Through all this I am pregnant, miserable, watching kids 11 hours a day then having my own beautiful babies to love, raise and cuddle with. I am cleaning and packing to move, plus dance class for Ireland, grocery trips, dr. appointments. Alone. It just sucks. after the 4 days he is here, he leaves again until I go into labor at the end of May. I will call him and he will try his best to race the 4.5 hour drive to get here in time. He will love on baby, then move our stuff to St. George, come back, grab us. THEN we can be together as a family from then on out!

Maybe it's just pregnancy hormones and I will look back and laugh. Really I will laugh for sure. ha ha. Maybe not.

Single moms are my heroes

This was a good vent.

Have a lovely day

ps. Thank you to my mother in law and my sister who DO help whenever they can! Your kindness does not go unnoticed.

Also, thank you to my amazing husband who works his butt off to make this work for us. To make sure we have the money to survive when we move. Who has to be doing all this without seeing his daughters each day.

Also- thank you to my brother for giving Daniel a place to stay.

Thanks to my mother for letting me text her multiple times a day with my complaints. :) and always giving me good advice.

See I don't have it so bad. I have a lot of good people on my side who help and get me through tough times. Hooray!