I've come to realize.......

...... that I am a procrastinator, BUT I do some of my best work at the last minute. I always did homework, reports, study for tests, anything very last minute. I actually prefer it.

that when Ireland has an ear infection (which she has a lot and has since birth) it makes me so sad and I just want to hold her all day and take her pain away.

that I am a baby. I got burned (I thought pretty bad) the other night and I seriously -at the time- thought there could be no worse pain. Then I had to stop feeling bad for myself. I remembered right before Ireland was born, my dad was severely burned and while at the burn trauma center, I had to see him and many others suffer. ** And I felt horrible the other night whining about MY burn.

that we picked the name for this new baby way back last summer and just now am reading it is in the top 50 BOY names. say what?! Leighton is a boy name? oh well. I LOVE boy names for girls! :)

that I have barely any memories from childhood, my wedding day, most my life. BUT sadly can remember almost every single bad thing that has ever happened or been said to or by me. Why is this??

that I ALWAYS ask people (mostly daniel) did you see/hear that?? when I clearly saw that they did. ha ha. Like Ireland will say something cute and even though Daniel cracks up I will ask... did you hear that? lol

that the ONLY bad thing that has come from this pregnancy is that I lost a friend because of it. I tell them I am pregnant and hear from them MAYBE twice after. And I am still left wondering what exactly it is that I did so wrong???

that I am NOT perfect. That I make mistakes, and say all the wrong things, and talk a lot, but I am still a good person with a sincere heart. And honestly just want people to be happy 

I've also come to realize that.....

..... The sweetest thing Ireland has ever done is learn to say I love you! oh man, it melts my heart. She says it all day and I get chills each time. And I know she means it and it is wonderful!

that I don't have very many close friends. The ones I do have are my lifeline. They keep me strong and sane and I appreciate them more than they know. 

that people who make little comments to my face or behind my back make me laugh. really?! who says stuff like that? examples: the other day an older lady asked what I was having, a boy or girl. I proudly said another girl. her face fell and she goes: "oh. well.... thats alright I guess. "

um.... ok, I was happy to have another girl. last I checked a kid was a kid and gender didn't matter. THEN friday we went to disney on ice and we were right down by the ice so when we left we had the ENTIRE arena stairs to climb and I held Ireland's hands and let her do the work climbing the stairs. I noticed near the top that two ladies  were staring at me, clearly talking about me, when I get up there I asked my sister if they were talking about me. She was right next to them and heard that they were. What they  HAD to gossip about?? One had told  the other to look at me, that I was already pregnant again and my kid wasn't even one yet! and saying they could never do that. OK, HELLO MY KID IS ALMOST 18 MONTHS!! not "almost one" ha ha she is just a shorty! I think it is so funny how people say the things they do.

that I have a wonderful husband who truly works so hard for us and loves us the way he does

that I need to spend more time thinking of others and their feelings. Be more thoughtful and selfless

that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and knows what I am going through. He knows my physical pain and knows what I can handle. He trusts me to raise his children and trusts that I will do everything In my power to be a good mom. That he loves me and knows that I am NOT perfect. That I make mistakes, and say all the wrong things, and talk a lot, but I am still a good person with a sincere heart. And honestly just want people to be happy :)  

Its a good day

I have come to realize that blogs make me happy when I can make these lists! ha ha

have a wonderful night!